Empires – \”Spit The Dark\”

I will guide you in the night.

I will guide you in the night.

Dear You,

The other day you handed me a brand new composition book, like the ones you had stacked in your room filled with all your writings you’ve done. This one was labeled as “#4, Altered States” and when I looked inside, I found that there were three new poems you’d written. They were about me, and they were amazing. I don’t think I have ever seen any of your writing that wasn’t born of hurt and betrayal, other than these. It makes me feel good, to know that I still inspire something from you, but it’s not negative like your past girlfriends.

My favorite one, I did not memorize it, but I remember the last line:

Amor de mi vida.

This weekend was one of the best I can remember with you. There was a lot of passion and attraction, a little more attention paid, and a whole lot of me feeling safer than ever. You asked me if I would like to sleep in your nook, and I graciously agreed to every time. You give me so much more than anyone else I’ve ever been with. I think this could be the best thing for me, right now, or ever.

Love, Me

Dear You,

You make me very, very happy. It’s silly when we both think the other is mad or upset, in turn making the paranoia worse for each other, even though neither of us is mad or upset. I’m sure we’re just worried to mess things up with each other because such happiness puts a lot of pressure on us. But either way, I couldn’t ever leave you and can only hope it’s the same for you. That you’d feel like we could work through any issue the way that I do. Coz I know I am willing to, it’s definitely worth it for me, no matter what the case is. And I hope you know I would never do anything to hurt you, it’s not a possibility for me. And for once in my life I have no fear of anything happening to me, either, and that is an amazing feeling.

The way that you make me feel is pretty much indescribable right now. Essentially, you make every part of my life a little bit brighter. Everything seems a little bit better just knowing that I am yours, as cheesy as that sounds. When I am away from you, I think about you damn near constantly. And when I am with you I feel supreme comfort and some form of being content I have never experienced. I feel settled, like, I don’t need anything else from the world. It’s all good.

I feel totally lame for being so openly obsessed with you, I think because I had previously been so used to trying to keep only “one foot in the door” out of fear. But with you, it’s not like that at all. I have no reason to be hesitant so it’s all just, there. I just love so much about you that I can’t help but swoon and be all over it at all times. I feel like I have so many nice things to say, but not enough space to say it.

To be honest, I think you’re absolutely amazing. You are smart, you know about so many things and always have something to teach me. You are funny, and in such a way that it never seems forced, it’s just genuine. And speaking of genuine, you are that too. I never feel like you are exaggerating or sugar-coating anything and that is amazing to me. You’re true. I adore it. And you are talented, beyond my comprehension. Sometimes I will see you doing something that just blows my mind, because it’s yet another thing you can do, and do well, and you already have so many talents and abilities. Like how you can make music, and draw, and paint, and tattoo, and write… And then I see you pick up a guitar and start making your own songs and it’s breath-taking to me. And you are beautiful, I have always thought so, and everyone is shallow to a point so I must say that it’s also a plus. Most of all what I love, is that when I talk, I can tell you’re listening. So many people just listen enough to know whether or not to respond with a “yeah” or “okay”, but you always LISTEN, and you understand me. It’s important to me, that you do this. Because I do it for you, and it’s a good feeling to get it in return just as much. But that’s how you are with everything, I never feel like I am giving more than I am getting, which is new for me and I am still getting used to it. I love it though, really.

This is getting long, so I will end it by saying that I am extremely excited to spend much, much more time with you. I’m excited to see where this will go, because I know we have lots of time left and I know it will only get better. Thank you for making my life so much better, I hope I can always manage to return the favor ❤

Love, Me